Monday, February 22, 2010


Part of my committment to a better week includes a committment to healthier eating. I can't go cold turkey on snacking. I just can't. This week, I'm very focused on healthier snacking. I've been munching a lot so far, and it's just Tuesday.

Here's what I've had and how I've felt about these products....

  • A VitaTop... deep chocolate one, to be exact. HOLY COW THIS IS GOOD!!! You nuke it and it gets all gooey and melty like a brownie. Serious yumminess for a mere 100 calories.
  • Laughing Cow Light Swiss Cheese with Special K Multigrain Crackers. Very tasty and filling. Calorie total: about 125 for a wedge of cheese and 17 crackers. I especially like the crackers (as does Sam!) because they are sweet and salty at the same time.
  • 100 Calorie Packs of Pepperidge Farm Milano cookies. Tasty, but they are two smaller-than-traditional cookies. Good, but makes me wonder how many calories I would have consumed with the whole package of regular Milanos... cause I could totally wipe out a whole box, no problem!
  • Jello Dark Chocolate Mousse. YUUUM. Even my kids like this. For 60 calories, it satisfies your chocolate cravings.
  • Weight Watchers Smart Ones Veggie Pizza Minis. REALLY good...four of them make a yummy, filling lunch. The crust is a little round bagel like thing, but better than a bagel, as it is crispy and kind of buttery tasting. Anything that is buttery tasting is okay with me. Four mini pizzas equal 270 calories/5 points.

Yesterday was a good(ish) day, food wise, but I didn't exercise last night like I had planned. On the agenda for today, in terms of my new healthy living committment, is a workout with my new Biggest Loser for Wii. I haven't tried it yet, but have heard good things about it. I'm also planning to fix myself a toasted cheesy English muffin along with a salad, rather than the traditional buttery-gooey grilled cheese I'm fixing for the kiddos. I'll round that out with apple slices and fat-free, sugar-free chocolate pudding.

I'm really having to fight the stress today and not give in to temptation to grab something bad from the vending machine. I know that I am a stress eater. I am working on new strategies for that. Excerise is one. Writing is another. Avoiding the negativity pit would really help, and I've been working hard at that.

Committed to a better week!

Last week wasn't one of my best. I was cranky, and for no legitimate reason. However, after a much needed fun filled weekend, I am on the right track again. Here are some of the measures I've taken to ensure a better week for all involved:
1. I went to the grocery store and bought a cart full of healthy stuff. No Doritos, Cheetos, or ice cream. All good things! I figure if I do resort to emotional eating, I'll only have good choices to make.
2. I made a plan for the week. I know, this is revolutionary.
3. I got up fifteen minutes early today to give myself some me time before I head out the door. See how I'm spending it??? I am going to hit the Wii Fit for a few minutes before I leave.

I've really been giving a lot of thought to what has gone wrong with me in the last little bit. I know that I am an emotional eater. It doesn't really matter what the emotion is, I can still find a way to engage in some sort of unhealthy eating to forge through. I'm a veteran of Weight Watchers. In my head, I know all of the good tips for combating emotional eating, but some how, I just choose to do the wrong thing instead.

After a lot of soul searching and riding the wave of the guilt trips I subject myself to, I've finally figured out that it isn't about the eating. It is about the emotions. I am letting my feelings rule me. Again, I KNOW better. I let myself get sucked into crankiness, anger, boredom, whatever. I become absorbed by these things. So, in light of my recent self-awareness and commitment to better living (sounds like a magazine, or something Oprah would say, right?), I am going to focus on getting my feelings under control. The eating will follow.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Thoughts for Thursday

Potty update: Jack made it all day yesterday in big boy underwear! Sam made it til 10:30 a.m. We're trying again. Hopefully, this is the light at the end of the very long diaper/pull up tunnel. Someone at my house has been wearing them for nearly six years now. I'm so over it.

Today, I'm feeling very scattered and unsuccesful. My desk is a total mess. I have way old essays that need to be graded. Audrey has a kindergarten open house tomorrow night, and I think I was supposed to have turned in a form for her two weeks ago. I haven't exercised all week. I have eaten very, very bad things (yummy white chocolate raspberry scone this morning). I have two fun meetings this afternoon that make me slightly sick to my stomach when I think about them. My brain is buzzing and I'm not accomplishing much of anything, really. Hence, this rambly, pointless post.

Really, I need to stop now. The pizza is here!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Biting the Bullet

We sent the boys to school in BIG BOY UNNAWEARS today. No pullups. We sent three spare outfits, too. You know, just in case.

It just had to be done. Otherwise, they'll just go from Pullups to Depends. And, really, while women always want to try to change their men, they don't really want to "change" them, right? We are going with the tough love strategy.

In other news:
  • I have given up candy for Lent. Now, candy means candy bars, lollipops, hard candy, Starburst, gummies, etc. IT DOES NOT include cookies, cake, brownies, or ice cream. I am not sure this really counts as a sacrifice, nor will it improve my ever expanding waist line, but still...
  • Last night I finished I Don't Know How She Does It by Allison Pearson . I could relate on many levels. It's the saga of a working mom who struggles with balance. It was witty and honest. So many of the main character's observations were things I have thought about many times. However, there was this whole e-mail emotional affair angle that I just couldn't get into. She never succumbs to the physical tempation, but at the end, she says that is her one regret. REALLY? Not having a physical affair was the regret? I'm thinking she might have been better off regretting her involvement with him at all.
  • I have a story brewing in my Writer's Notebook. Not sure how to approach it, as it is a mostly true story, not about me, and I don't want to reveal too much. But it is just too good to keep to myself! There are lots of approaches I could take, many voices that need to be heard, and different outcomes that could be explored. I have to find a way to tell this!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

On the topic of reading...

My very cool friend Megan challenged herself to read 50 books this year. I would like to do the same. I'm off to a good start. She posts reviews on her blog. Maybe I'll do that sometime in the future. For now, you'll have to make do with a list and a very simple rating from me. Five stars is a good thing. One star, not so much. Get it? See, I knew my basic readership was gifted.

2010 Reads To Date:
With a Hammer For My Heart by George Ella Lyon ***
Taft by Ann Patchett **** (Could have been five if I understood the ending)
Bel Canto by Ann Patchet ***** (WOW!)
The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger ****
Smash Cut by Sandra Brown ***
The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier ***
The Heart is a Lonely Hunter by Carson McCullers ****

The only book that I would rate as a one star (or less, if I could figure out how to do that) I can't really list because I only made it through about three chapters before I determined that it was an utter waste of the paper it was printed on. I should have known that when I picked it up at Half-Price Books on the one dollar shelf and there were multiple copies of it! I didn't really give it a good once over then, just noticed that it was written by Shari Shattuck, who played Ashley Abbott on The Young and the Restless for a brief stint. Hardly a real literary credential, I know. But it was a DOLLAR....and it looked like a fun, interesting mystery about the world of geishas. WRONG. It was crap, which I would have realized had I followed my teacherly advice and read the first poorly written page, or even scanned the back of the book more carefully. Lethal, the title I selected, turns out to be just one of in a series of books by the "Naughty Girls of Downtown Press." Their motto? "Good girls go to Heaven. Bad girls go Downtown." 'Nuff said.

I have an extensive list of wanna-reads in my journal, but that is in my desk at school...where I haven't been for four whole days. I would like to branch out into different genres (cookbooks don't count!), read/reread more classics, and find some authors whose styles inspire me. Ann Patchett is pretty phenomenal. Each of her books (and I think I've read most, except The Magician's Assistant) is unique. No predictability. Her settings range from a home for pregnant teens in rural western Kentucky to an unnamed South American country's capital. Thought provoking stuff.

By the way, as I type this blog, I am wearing a crown. It is bejeweled and has purple puffy feathers and sequins. So, that means that what I say goes, right??

20 Sweet Snacks for 50 Calories or Less

20 Sweet Snacks for 50 Calories or Less

Yuuummmm! From Better Homes and Gardens!

I am a BAD blogger.

Four months of nothingness here on The Unquiet Life. Not that anyone probably noticed, except for the Viagra spammers and such. Anyway, I'll try again.

Quick updates:
1. I have gained all but about 8 pounds of my weight back from the big loss I had during my Crohn's flare last year. But, I'm healthy, so that's a plus.
2. My boys are still wearing pullups and using pacifiers. Yes, they are three and a half. What's your point?
3. It has snowed and snowed and snowed here...five days of spring break to repay.
4. Audrey will be going to an open house for kindergarten Friday night. I may vomit.
5. John has finished his ARE tests...waiting for results on the last one.

That's about it. Can you see why my blog has been blank? My life has been pretty dull lately. Thank goodness, I guess!

Now for some goals and accountability...dear readers, by sharing with you, hopefully, I'll feel more inspired to keep myself on the right track.
1. Exercise...daily!
2. Run a 5k.
3. Write more. Like every day.
4. Read more. I've read 7 books so far in 2010.
5. Be more frugal---eat in more!

I'll share my progress on those goals. Oh, yeah, and the potty training the sounds of the conversation between Jack and Audrey right now, it isn't looking good....Better go solve that problem!