Thursday, November 20, 2014

Words from a wimp: Prayer

For quite a while now, I have felt this urging to improve my prayer life. As a result, I took a few tangible steps to help me move in the right direction. I began participating in the intercessory prayer ministry at my church. I constructed a prayer journal.  I have read a number of books about prayer and I'm currently in TWO Bible/Book studies about prayer- Approaching God by Steve Brown and Before Amen by Max Lucado, which begins with the author declaring that he is a "recovering prayer wimp." Max. A giant in the Christian world. If he thinks he is wimpy, then what am I? Queen of All Wimps!

As I'm drawing closer to Christ, one big thing strikes me: none of all that stuff- the studies, the books, the journal- is necessary. All that is needed is for me to COME TO HIM. The Bible provides us with very specific yet very simple  instructions from Jesus Himself about how to do prayer, and as it turns out, a wimp can do just fine following His instructions.

So, I'm practicing following those instructions. I pray the Lord's Prayer. Sometimes I put it into my own words and fill in my needs and the needs of others, but sometimes I just repeat it as is. Sometimes I'm more elaborate, but sometimes my prayers just consist of a single word or phrase repeated over and over. "You are good." "Help me Father." "Thank you, Lord."

And guess what? It's enough. Just bringing myself to His throne, sitting in his presence, letting my heart be open, stilling my self. It's enough.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

I guess I gave up blogging...

I could make a million excuses as to why my blog has been silent for so long. However, it really boils down to one thing: I had lost the desire to write anything for public consumption.

Well, aren't you glad to know that I've got my mojo back? Seriously, back when I was blogging regularly, I felt a burning desire that I know God placed in my heart to share my thoughts, struggles, insights, and, well, my life. Then, it went away. The words were still there, floating around in disjointed clusters in my brain. The struggles were CERTAINLY there. I just couldn't get it all together in a way that made any sense. I have a dozen draft blog entries that I started but lacked the oomph to complete.

For the past few weeks, I've felt that stirring again. That prompting to put my thoughts out there for others to see. Several times, I have experienced a strong leading to write. Finally, I'm getting to it.

Now, I don't have anything big or profound to say today. Just wanted to tune up my old blog and get it ready for whatever God has in mind for me to say.

Are you ready? I am!