Thursday, December 30, 2010

Resolve

I have very little resolve. You would know this if you scroll back through the pages of this blog and see all the times I've assured my readership that I'll be posting regularly, then note that there is a four week (or longer!) gap between that post and the next one. I just stink at sticktoitiveness. I would like to blame it on the million and one other commitments I have in my life, like the kids, my marriage, my job, and church, and that is partially true, but the main thing is that my attention shifts from one obsession to the next pretty quickly, and I just give up.

With 2010 coming to a close, the world is abuzz with New Year's resolutions. You won't be surprised to know that I make resolutions every year and fail to keep them. However, I'll try again this year. The bar is set pretty low, so any accomplishment will be a point of pride. My pessimism is shining through, I know.

Drumroll, please. My 2011 resolutions are here.

1. Lose weight. I think 15 pounds would be doable and would help A LOT! Twenty five would be awesome, but who am I kidding?
2. Get organized. I can't make this one more specific. Any improvement in this area would be welcome.
3.Sell a crocheted item or two, or more!
4.Cook four nights a week, and cook different things!
5. Read 25 books this year, and document them on this blog.
6. Blog twice weekly.
7. Attend a genealogy workshop.
8. Memorize scripture. I think a verse a week is doable.
9. Do something different. Try new things. Zumba, pottery, Bunco, wool spinning...just a few of the things I'd like to try.  They are all "fun" things, so why not?
10. Get back on the Financial Peace train. I think it ran me over during the holidays. :)

See! I did it. Now, the tough part is to figure out how I'll make those things happen. I will report back on my progress and failings throughout the year. I hope 2011 brings your all the things you hope for!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Snow day!

I wasn't really looking forward to a snow day today. Truth be told, I wanted to get through this week. However, I  got one. The boys are spending a few days with John's parents, so it is just Audrey and me. And we're lovin' it. Still in our jammies and it is almost noon!

Last week was nuts for me. I had school obligations nightly. Most of last week, I arrived at work before daylight and left after dark.The weekend was busy, too, with little opportunity for rest. This snow day, therefore, is a recuperative one.

Stay warm!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Hunger

It is 10:45 in the morning, and my class is doing writing workshop, and all I can think about is that lunch is a half an hour away. My belly is growling and my mind is wandering. My class, normally the rowdiest crew of the y, is quietly writing. In an attempt to fend off the grumbles, I popped over to BibleGateway to see the verse of the day.

John 6:35 "Then Jesus declared, 'I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.'"

Hmmm. Food for thought!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Waiting

Remember the other day when I shared that I am not good at waiting? A time in my life when that was particularly challenging for me was when we were trying to conceive a child. I loathed that wait, every month, especially all the months that ended in disappointment. I struggled with my faith during that time. I believed, absolutely and certainly, that I would have a baby. I didn't really understand the point of waiting. I was ready to be a mother. It was painful for me to learn that other people were expecting, especially when I knew they didn't really want a baby, or already had children. I was the epitome of impatient.

In the midst of all of my restlessness, I began to identify with Hannah, the mother of the prophet Samuel. She wanted a baby sooooo much. She had a husband who loved her with a "double portion" but she felt incomplete. She went to the temple and prayed. She poured her spirit as she prayed. I could definitely identify with that. She begged the Lord for a child and promised to give that baby back to God if He would just let her be a mother. The priest thought she was drunk, but when she explained that she was deeply grieved, Eli the priest blessed her and said, "Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.” Hannah wasn't sad anymore. She could finally eat again. She went on back home and resumed her life.

And you know what? Hannah, whose womb had  been closed, soon gave birth to Samuel, one of the most pivotal prophets in the Old Testament. And Hannah kept her promise. She returned to the temple and said to Eli, the same priest who had counseled her in her despair, "“Pardon me, my lord. As surely as you live, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the LORD. I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD.”


That story gave me a lot of comfort through my waiting. Sure enough, I found out in March of 2004 that I was expecting, and when Audrey arrived in October, my life was never the same. I'm still not very patient, but I've learned that pouring out my worries and anxieties to God does bring relief. The waiting is the hardest part.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Cute Advent idea that I am totally stealing...

I follow the Mummy Deals blog on Facebook's Networked Blogs. I saw this idea today. We've been doing our nightly Advent devotion as a family, but I usually end up more frazzled than refreshed because it doesn't hold the kids' attention so  we rush through it and I usually yell at someone before it is all said and done. When I saw this idea, I knew right away that it would solve all of my problems. Well, the ones relating to inattentive kids during Advent devotionals anyway...

Light

I like light. First thing I do when I get up in the morning is turn on all the lights. I mean ALL the lights...I flip all the switches, turn on the table lamps, and, at this time of year, I click the button to light up the Christmas tree. I just don't like it to be dark if I'm awake. I'll come into the kitchen and find that my husband has made coffee by the light over the sink, the dimmest bulb in the room. I don't get it! I can't see!!! How can he?

Our Advent memory verse has been John 8:12, which says "Once more Jesus addressed the crowd. He said, I am the Light of the world. He who follows Me will not be walking in the dark, but will have the Light which is Life." What a  great promise. Follow him and you won't stumble in the darkness. No more tripping over obstacles you can't see. He clearly illuminates the way.