Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Rebooting

So, I fell totally of the wagon last week. I knew it was a bad week to start the Why Not challenge. I did very, very poorly. I could quit. I have given that some thought. Instead, I am going to start over right now...no waiting until a new week starts. I will resume the week one challenge of writing and posting everyday. Consider it one really long week.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Apologies!

No writing for Monday. Too busy! I promise I will have some for today!!
XXOO

Monday, July 12, 2010

Sunday's Writing

I am having a bear of a time getting internet connection! Here is what I wrote on Sunday for my first day of WHY NOT challenge.

The prompt, from Writing Fix: Where did they buy that clothing? Write about someone, real or fictional, who is either a wolf in sheep’s clothing or a sheep in wolf’s clothing.

Surprise, surprise...I departed from the prompt. Now, bear in mind I promised to write, not that I would crank out Nobel worthy stuff. But.....here it is!


Her carefully tailored designer suit accentuated her assets perfectly. After all the work she had put in to building a body like this, she relished the attention it earned her. She entered the bar during happy hour when she knew it would be crowded with important, attractive, and, of course, wealthy businessmen. The click of her heels commanded attention as she walked across the room and found a seat at the bar. She tucked her sleek brown hair behind her ear with a well manicured hand and quickly swept the room with her eyes, determined to see if she was being noticed. And, of course, she was. But instead of returning her admirer’s glance with a smoldering bat of her eye, she blanched. Her devotee wasn’t the attorney in Armani nursing a bourbon at the bar. Nor was it the bartender, who was too young and too poor for her tastes, but nonetheless mysterious and steamy hot . Instead, she had garnered the attention of the freckly-faced, four-eyed loser who worked as a teller at the bank across the street from her office.
She tried to look away before their eyes met, but it was too late. His gaze had been fixed on her since she entered the room, certainly long enough that he recognized even the slightest movement. She managed a weak grin, then looked away, fiddling with her bracelet. A teller, she thought, finding the notion abolutely apalling. Does he think that I’d give him a moment of my time? With a body like this, I can do better. Much better. She turned her attentions away from the teller and focused on the lawyer. Maybe she could will him to look at her.

The young man who had been studying her chuckled to himself and took a sip of his cocktail. That pretentious snob, he thought. She thought I was flirting with her. I wonder if anyone will tell her that her skirt is tucked into the back of her pantyhose?

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Why Not Challenge, Week 1

All things considered, this coming week is a pitiful week to start a new challenge. I leave tomorrow afternoon, kids in tow, for West Liberty, where I'll be staying with my parents all week. From 8 to 5 every day, I will be attending the Advanced Placement Summer Institute at Morehead State University. Being away from home and busy during the day probably is not the best atmosphere for beginning my Why Not challenge. But, I vowed to do it, and it would be really sad to quit before I even start.

My first challenge is a little lame, but worthwhile nonetheless. This week, I challenge myself to write in response to a prompt every day, and then craft that writing into something blog-worthy. I plan to use the prompt generator at Writing Fix. However, if one of my readers has a suggestion for a prompt or a source for inspiration, I'll try my best!!!

So, in summary...expect one blog post daily (may have trouble posting from West Liberty, but I can defintely post from MSU) that is a somewhat processed piece of writing.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Debbie Downer, be gone!

Okay, I've had a hot shower and some time to think...and I'm not going to let that ugly Debbie Downer keep stealing my bliss. So...I've decided to do something new with the blog, and I'm going to need some help!





When I started this blog, it was never my intention to drone on and on about the realities of my boring life. It really was intended to jump start my creativity, to get me writing again. It morphed into a summary of what I did today, which is a major no-no in my class. It seldom went beyond that. I longed to come up with some creative slant, like Julie Powell did with her Julia Child project. Still, the ideas weren't coming, and neither were my posts. I have been a very unfaithful blogger. And yet a few of you read my mindless drivel!



Anyway, here's my idea. It isn't original. I was actually reading an old issue of Self magazine (November 2009), and found an article by Ugly Betty's Becki Newton, where she spent a week doing things she had always wanted to do, but had not had the courage to try. It was her "Week of Why Nots."



That's what I'm going to do...sort of. I am going to undertake a weekly "Why Not?" challenge and document my progress on my blog. I have a list of some ideas, but I need some help from the few of you who are reading. I need ideas, I need encouragement. I need to know you are reading so I won't give up. I need accountability.



Here's a list of ideas that I've come up with so far. Remember, what ever it is, I will do it every day for a week....


  • Eat a vegan diet
  • Try a different exercise class each day

  • Eat no processed foods

  • Read a book each day (start to finish!!!)

  • Go without make up (even to work!)

  • Say only positive things

  • Chronicle the week in pictures, not words

  • Watch no TV

  • No Facebook for a week

  • Do something charitable every day
  • Spend only cash-no plastic
  • Cook every meal we eat
  • Other things??? Spiritual, physical, intellectual, environmental???? I am open to ideas.

I am trying to figure out when to start on this and which challenge to take first. Next week, I will be attending an Advanced Placement institute and staying with my parents...so the food ideas will be out until after that. I don't know...give me your feed back!

Reality

We're back from our super relaxing trip. I will recount those adventures in another post. I can't even think about it right now or I get a little sad. It was nice. But now, we're back to reality.

The reality that I am struggling with most today is the fact that I have let my body deteriorate so badly. I am FAT. I mean, I've always, with the exception of my bout with Crohn's disease, been a chunky girl. But I was usually at least moderately in shape. I walked, swam, worked out...whatever. Now, I'm a big old tub of lard. I am disgusting. I have gained 50 pounds in the last year. Granted, I had lost 45 the year before due to the aforementioned Crohn's disease spell, but still...you would think that having a taste of thin would make me more apt to stay thin, not eat my way through four dress sizes, and counting.

I know the skinny people of the world probably think, big deal, go on a diet. And in my head, I know that . I've been a Weight Watcher, I know what to eat and how to change my behaviors to get the desired results. But I can think of ten thousand excuses to just keep going the direction I'm going. Effort, time, fear of failure, fear of success, love of food, you name it. I just keep fighting the same old demons, letting it get the best of me.

That's today's reality.